| i'm not a psycho. i just think about things a lot and work things out in my head and i get excited and i feel crazy and stupid and silly.
i'm going to bed. but i do want you to know, whatever happens here and now, then and there, i'll be happy because God's got my whole body, life, surroundings, all secure. He's keeping me. He builds and rebuilds |
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| she heartily approves.
this is exactly how it should have always been; was i blind before?
not one red flag yet, and i don't expect there to be on my end.
i mean, he could very well see many things turn-offible about me. but i just pray he doesn't and that whatever it is, it's those i'm working on.
she said, just be yourself. if it's supposed to happen then it will.
i agree. and i believe this strongly.
we shall see where things bring us. where God leads us.
yesterday was one of the best Christmases. I'm with Sarah on the whole, being alone at in a family. but for some reason, yesterday was different. i knew that my time will come, and just to cherish what i had right then. it'll be completely different next year. i'll have another brother married. before siblings marry Christmas is so different. not bad after marriage, just foreign. i mean, the last two year cassie has come over on Christmas day. that never would have been acceptable year before. but she's my other half and not many people are even over except in the morning.
ANYWAY, i got a lot of stuff for drawing and writing. calligraphy pens. ink dippers. beautiful card stock. awesome pens. i still have ink all over my fingers from using it so much. i got a nice teapot, clothes, toms, gift card. this year i really did get the best presents. i didn't ask for anything, and everyone got me the perfect presents. i couldn't have asked for me, honestly.
i'm doing Martha's headshots soon, so i'ma boogie on outta here.
next comes, cassie's departure, heather's birthday, chloe's birthday, isabella's birthday, levi and heather's anniversary, new year's eve, jared and kelsey's engagement party, then two other people's birthdays.
OH HEAVVVVVENS! |
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| you bring out the best in me!
i'm actually up in the boys' apartment right now. i had to sleep up here because there was no room for me at the inn. today is "dress up like your brothers day" i'm wearing jared's hoodie and reigner sweat pants. oh boy
"Make sure you rock around your Christmas tree. That involves lots and lots of dancing."
Kelsey had a bit of a premonition. oh oh! i really like where things are headed/where they have been.
I saw the newly engaged couple last night. it was wonderful. Christmas today will be rockin'!
This is the first year i actually had to have someone wake me up on Christmas morning and the latest i've ever slept in. I guess this year my present to myself was a bit more sleep. how nice of myself.
we're all waiting for the littlest, zoe, to wake up so we's can all go open present. it's just a great year.
i'm really quite astounding by the generosity by my Lord and Saviour. my life is fantastic and i have no need to be down.
MERRY CHRISTMAS! |
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| "do you make all your new friends fill out questionnaires?"
The Lord is great! I will serve Him all my days! I will proclaim His name with every joyful song!
I will so miss cass when she's gone. I'm not looking forward to that. I'm going to make it possible to visit her for her birthday in April. I just have to. It'll be hard to go 8 months without seeing her, really.
there's a fire going on behind me. i like this reality.
I'm just happy. I expressed that to my mama. I mean, God's got me taken care of. I don't mind being patient, actually I prefer waiting right now. I'm in no hurry and I know that the wait will most definitely be worth it. I know that whoever it may be will capture my attention fully and no others will even be a bit of a temptation. He's really removing difficulties in my life because I'm trying to practice righteousness. The steps I'm taking are important and rewarding. He taught me lessons in California only so I could come home and put them to good use. And that, is why He called me back home.
He continues to purify me and make me new. I am astounded by His love and generosity. GLORY!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE! |
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| not one bad bone in this beautiful day.
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